Older lyrics are based on those e-mailed from MJK to the excellent semi-official http://toolshed.down.net/ On 10,000 Days I've been active in the opinion forum there as they've been decyphered. :) Me, I want a transcript of my CDs so I've revised "Official" lyrics emailed to Kabir. Words in parentheses are those quiet and damn near subliminal words that weren't listed. Brackets indicate alternate lyrics, comments, or how many times the previous line repeats. 10,000 DAYS 1. Vicarious [Eye on/I own] the TV, 'cause tragedy thrills me Whatever flavor, it happens to be, like: "Killed by the husband", "Drowned by the ocean" "Shot by his own son", "She used the poison In his tea and kissed him goodbye" That's my kind of story, it's no fun 'til someone dies Don't look at me like, I am a monster Frown out your one face, but with the other Stare like a junkie, into the TV Stare like a zombie, whi-le the mother Holds her child, watches him die Hands to the sky cryin' "Why, oh why?" Cause I need to watch things die from a distance Vicariously, I live while the whole world dies You all need it too - don't lie Why can't we just admit it? Why can't we just admit it? We won't give pause until the blood is flowin' Neither the brave nor bold will write us the story so We won't give pause until the blood is flowin' I need to watch things die, from a good safe distance Vicariously, I live while the whole world dies You all feel the same so, Why can't we just admit it? Blood like rain come down Drum on grave and ground Part vampire, part warrior Carnivore and voyeur, stare at the Transmittal, sing, to the death rattle La, la, la, la, la, la, la-lie [4x] [Credulous / Credu-lust] at best, your desire to believe in Angels in the hearts of men Pull your head on out your happy haze and give a listen Shouldn't have to say it all again The universe is hostile, so impersonal Devour to survive, so it is, so it's always been We all feed on tragedy, it's like blood to a vampire Vicariously, I live while the whole world dies Much better you than I. 2. Jambi Here from the king's mountain view, here from the wild dream come true Feast like a sultan I do, on treasures and flesh never few Would I? I would, wish it all away, if I thought I'd lose you just one day The devil in here's had me down, in love with the dark side I've found Dabbling all the way down, up to my neck soon to drown But you changed that all for me, lifted me up, turned me round So I, I, I, I, I would, I would, I would wish this all away Prayed like a martyr dusk to dawn, beg like a hooker all night long Shout to the devil with my song, and got what I wanted all along But I, and I would, if I could, and I would Wish it away, wish it away, wish it all away Wanna wish it all away, no pressure could hold sway Or justify my, giving away, my center So if I could I'd wish it all away If I thought tomorrow, would take you away You're my piece of mind, my own, I said I'm Just trying to hold on, One more day Damn my eyes, Jam my eyes, [Dim / Damn] my eyes If they should compromise a fulcrum Want and need divide me Then I might as well be gone Shine on forever, shine on benevolent sun Shine down upon the broken Shine [on 'til / until] the two become one Shine on forever, shine on benevolent sun Shine down upon the severed Shine [on 'til / until] the two become one Divided I'm withering away, divided I'm withering away Shine down upon the many, light our way Benevolent sun Breathe in union [5x] So, as one, survive, another day and season Silence, leech and save your poison Silently, just stay out of my way 3. Wings for Marie (Pt 1) You believed You believed in moments none could see You believed in me A passionate spirit Uncompromised Boundless and open A light in your eyes that Could end all lies Vacant, broken Fell at the hands of this moment so that I wouldn't see It was you who prayed for me so What have I done, to be son to an angel What have I done, to be worthy The daylight dims leaving cold fluorescence Difficult to see you in this light Please forgive this selfish question, but What am I to say to all these ghouls tonight She never told a lie Well might have told a lie But never lived one Didn't have a life Didn't have a life But surely saved one So I'm all right, now it's time for us to let you go 4. 10,000 Days (Wings Pt 2) Listen to the tales and romanticize How we follow the path of the hero Boast about the day when the rivers overrun How we rise to the height of our halo Listen to the tales as we all rationalize Our way into the arms of the savior Feigning all the trials and the tribulations None of us have actually been there Not like you Ignorant fibbers in the congregation Gather around spewing sympathy Spare me None of them can even hold a candle up to you Blinded by choices, hypocrites won't see But, enough about the collective Judas. Who could deny you were the one who illuminated Your little piece of the divine This little light of mine, the gift you passed on to me I'm gonna let it shine to guide you safely on your way Your way home... Oh, what are they going to do when the lights go down Without you to guide them all to Zion What are they going to do when the rivers overrun Other than tremble incessantly High is the way, but our eyes are upon the ground You were the light and the way, they only read about I only pray, Heaven knows when to lift you out Ten thousand days in the fire is long enough, you're going home You're the only one who can hold your head up high Shake your fist at the gates saying: "I have come home now! Fetch me the spirit, the son, and the father Tell them their pillar of faith has ascended. It's time now! My time now! Give me my, give me my wings." Give me my [5x] Give me my wings You are the light and way, that they will only read about Set as I am in my ways and my arrogance Burden of proof, tossed upon unbelievers You were my witness, my eyes, my evidence Judith Marie, unconditional one Daylight dims leaving cool fluorescence Difficult to see you in this light Please forgive this bold suggestion: Should you see your Maker's face tonight, Look Him in the eye, look Him in the eye, and tell Him: I never lived a lie, never took a life, but surely saved one. Hallelujah, its time for you to bring me home. 5. The Pot Who are you to wave your finger? You must've been out your hair [Yes I know it should be "head", but he sung "hair".] Eye-hole deep in muddy waters you practically raised the dead Rob the grave to snow the cradle, then burn the evidence down Soapbox house of cards and glass so, don't go tossing your stones around You must've been high, you must've been high, you must've been Foot in mouth and head up asshole, what ya talkin' 'bout? Difficult to dance 'round this one, 'til you pull it out, boy You must've been so high, you must've been so high Steal, borrow, reefer. Save your shady inference Kangaroo done hung the juror with the innocent Now you're weeping shades of chosen indigo Got lemon juice up in your eye Oh, when you pissed all over my black kettle You must've been high, high You must've been high, high Who are you to wave your finger? So full of it Eyeballs deep in muddy waters, fucking hypocrite Liar, lawyer, mirror, show me, what's the difference? Kangaroo done hung the guilty with the innocent NOW You're weeping shades of chosen indigo Got lemon juice up in your high eye When you pissed all over my black kettle You must've been So who are you to wave your finger? Who are you to wave your fatty fingers at me? You must have been out your mind Weeping shades of indigo Shed without a reason Weeping shades of indigo Liar, lawyer, mirror, for you, what's the difference Kangaroo be stoned, he's guilty as the government NOW You're weeping shades of chosen indigo Got lemon juice up in your eye, eye When you pissed all over my black kettle You must've been high, high, high, high Eyeballs deep in bloody waters You're balls deep in muddy waters [Gotcha with lies / Ganja po' lies / Ganja police] You must have been out your mind 6. Lipan Conjuring [native american crooning] OOOOooooOOOOOOOooo OOO oo oiiiiaaayyyy OOOOoooOOOOOOo oo OOO oo oiiiiaaayyyy heeee yaaa niiigghya tooooo ah heeee yaaa niiighaya tooo ee yaaay OOOOOooo OOO oo oiiiiaaayyyy OOOOOooOOOo OOO oo oiiiiaaayyyy ayyyy yay niiiiigh HAAAA TOOO EY Yaaah NOI MEEE HAAOWW KOOOOOOOoo 7. Lost Keys (Blame Hofmann) Nurse: Excuse me, doctor, do you have a moment? Doctor: A moment? What's the question? Nurse: More of a situation, a gentleman in exam 3. Doctor: What's the problem? Nurse: That is the problem, were not sure. Doctor: You've got the chart? Nurse: Right here Doctor: hmmmm.. Not much here, is there. Nurse: No doctor, no obvious physical trauma, mmm vitals are stable. Doctor: Name? Nurse: No sir. Doctor: Did someone drop him off, maybe we can speak to them? Lets get some background on this fellow. Nurse: No ID, nothing, and he wont speak to anyone Doctor: Well then, lets say hello Doctor: Good morning, I'm Dr. Watson. How are you today? How *are* you today? Look son, you're in a safe place, we want to help you, in whatever way we can. But you need to talk us, we can't help you otherwise. Now, What's happened? Tell me everything. 8. Rosetta Stoned Alrighty then, picture this if you will: Ten to 2AM and actually heating up the old box of krispy kremes at my need-to-know post just outside area 51, contemplating the whole "chosen people" thing but just then a flaming stealth banana split the sky like one would hope but never really expect to see in a place like this. Cutting right angle donuts on a dime and stopping right at my Birkenstocks, and me yelping: Holy fucking shit [8x] Then the x-file being, looking like some kind of blue-green Jackie Chan with Isabella Rossellini lips with breath that reeked [of vanilla Chig Champa did a slow-mo matrix descent outta the butt of the banana vessel and hovered above / did a wicked jump there also while making the sound abananababananaba so when I opened up] my bug eyes, my gaping jaw, and my sweaty L. Ron Hubbard upper lip and all I could think was: "I hope Uncle Quark here doesn't notice that I pissed my fuckin' pants" So light in his way, like an apparition he a had me cryin' out: "Fuck me, it's gotta be th' deadhead chemistry. The blotter got right on top of me, Got me seein' E mother-fuckin' T And after calming me down with some orange slices and some fetal-spooning, ET revealed to me his singular purpose. He said: "You are the chosen one, the one who will deliver the message. A message of hope for those who choose to hear it, and a warning for those who do not." Me? The chosen one? They chose me? And I didn't graduate from fucking high school. You had better [3x] You had better listen Then you looked right through me, with somniferous almond eyes. Don't even know what that means, must remember to write it down. This is so real, like the time Dave floated away. See my heart is pounding, 'cause this shit never happens to me. I can't breathe right now, it was so real. Like I woke up in Wonderland, all sorta terrifying I don't wanna be all alone, while I tell the story And can anyone tell me why, you all sound like Peanuts parents? Will I ever be coming down? This is so real, finally it's my lucky day. See my heart is racing, 'cause this shit never happens to me. I can't breathe right now. You believe me don't you? Please believe what I just said. See the Dead ain't touring an', and this wasn't all in my head. See they took me by the hand, and invited me right in Then they showed me something. I don't even know where to begin Strapped down in my bed, feet cold and eyes red. And I'm out of my head. Am I alive, am I dead? Can't remember what they said. God damn, shit the bed. (Hey... high ohhh... I [6x]... High I, I [5x]... High, high hey... Oh/high/hey/oh...) Overwhelmed as one would be, if placed in my position. Such a heavy burden now to be the One. Born to bear and bring to all the details of our ending. To write it down for all the world to see. But I forgot my pen, shit the bed again. Typical. Strapped down in my bed, feet cold and eyes red. I'm out of my head. Am I alive, am I dead? Sun kissed and Sudafed, gyroscopes and infrared. Won't help the brain dead, can't remember what they said. God damn, shit the bed. I can't remember what they said to me Can't remember what they said to make me out to be a hero Can't remember what he said Bob help me, can't remember what it said. Don't know, won't know [12x] God damn, shit the bed 9. Intension Work hard, stay in school, listen to your mother, your father is right [2x, whispered, backwards] Pure as we begin, pure as we come in Pure as we begin, move by will alone Pure as we begin, here we have a stone Gather, place, array so, shelter turns to home Pure as we begin, here we have a stone Throw to stay the stranger, swore to crush his bones Move by will alone Spark becomes a flame, flame becomes a fire Light the way or warm this, home we occupy Spark becomes a flame, flame becomes a fire Forge a blade to slay the stranger, take whatever we desire Move by will alone Pure as we begin Pure as we begin, move by will alone Leave as we come in, pure as light, return to one Move by will alone, move by will alone 10. Right In Two Angels on the sideline, puzzled and amused Why did Father give these humans free will? Now they're all confused. Don't these talking monkeys know that Eden has enough to go around? Plenty in this holy garden, silly monkeys Where there's one you're bound to divide Right in Two Angels on the sideline, baffled and confused. Father blessed them all with reason, And this is what they choose? Monkey killing monkey killing monkey over pieces of the ground. Silly monkeys give them thumbs they forge a blade And where there's one they're bound to divide it Right in two. Right in two. Monkey killing monkey killing monkey over pieces of the ground. Silly monkeys give them thumbs they make a club, And beat their brother down. How they survive so misguided is a mystery. Repugnant is a creature who would squander the ability, To lift an eye to heaven, conscious of his fleeting time here. Cuuuut it all right in two Cut it (-uuut it) all right in two Cut an' divide it all right in two Gonna divide it all right in two Fight, 'til they die, over th' earth, over sky They fight and they'll lie, over ground, over th' air And light, over love, over sin, over blood and Fight, 'til they die, over ones who are rising (here) Angels on the sideline again, been too long with patience and reason Angels on the sideline again, wondering where this tug of war will end Cut an' divide it all right in two Cut an' divide it all right in two Gonna divide it all right in two Right in two. 11. Viginti Tres [noisetrumental] [The system / Assist uuu(s)] LATERALUS 1. The Grudge Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will or will not tolerate Desperate to control all and everything Unable to forgive you scarlet lettermen Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down Justify denial's end. Grip unto the lonesome end Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down Terrified of being wrong. Ultimatum prison cell Saturn ascends, choose one or ten. Hang on or be humbled again, humble again Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down Justify denial's end. Grip unto the lonesome end Saturn ascends, comes round again Saturn ascends, the one, the ten. Ignorant to the damage done Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will or will not tolerate Desperate to control all and everything Unable to forgive you scarlet lettermen Wear the grudge like a crown, desperate to control Unable to forgive, and sinking deeper Defining, confining, sinking deeper Controlling, defining, and we're sinking deeper Saturn comes back around to show you everything Let's you choose what you will not see and then Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again Spits you out like a child, light and innocent Saturn comes back around. Lifts you up like a child Or drags you down like a stone To consume you till you choose to, let this go Choose to, let this go Give away the stone. Let the oceans take and Transmutate this cold and fated anchor Give away the stone. Let the waters kiss and Transmutate these leaden grudges into gold Let go [repeat] 2. Eon Blue Apocalypse [No Words] 3. The Patient A groan of tedium escapes me startling the fearful Is this a test? It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on Draining patience drained vitality This paranoid paralyzed vampire act's a little old But I'm still right here, giving blood keeping faith, and I'm still right here But I'm still right here, giving blood keeping faith, and I'm still right here Wait it out, gonna wait it out, be patient If there were no reward to reap, no loving embrace to see me through This tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would have walked away, by now Gonna wait it out If there was no desire to heal, the damaged and broken met along This tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would have walked away, by now And I still wait, I still wait Be patient, be patient, be patient Must keep reminding myself of this, I must keep reminding myself of this I must keep reminding myself of this, I must keep reminding myself of this [Repeat four more times along with the next two lines] If there were no reward to reap, no loving embrace to see me through This tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would have walked away By now and I still may, and I still may, and I still may, and I am Gonna wait it out, Gonna wait it out, wait it out, Gonna wait it out 4. Mantra [No Words] 5. Schism I know the pieces fit 'cause I watched them fall away Mildewed and smoldering. Fundamental differing Pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion Disintegrating as it goes testing our communication The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so We cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication I know the pieces fit 'cause I watched them tumble down No fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to Point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication The poetry that comes from the squaring off between And the circling is worth it Finding beauty in the dissonance There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting I've done the math enough to know the dangers of our second guessing Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any Sense of compassion Between supposed lovers/brothers I know the pieces fit [8x] 6. Parabol So familiar and overwhelmingly warm This one, this form I hold now Embracing you, this reality here This one, this form I hold now, so Wide eyed and hopeful Wide eyed and hopefully wild We barely remember what came before this precious moment Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in This body makes me feel eternal. All this pain is an illusion 7. Parabola We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment We are choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside This holy reality, this holy experience. Choosing to be here in This body, this body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion Alive In this holy reality, in this holy experience. Choosing to be here in This body, this body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion Twirling round with this familiar parable Spinning, weaving round each new experience Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be, alive and breathing A chance to be, alive and breathing This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality Embrace this moment. Remember We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion 8. Ticks & Leeches Suck and Suuuuuck Suckin up all you can suckin up all you can suck and suck Workin up under my patience like a little tick Fat little parasite. Suck me dry My blood is bruised and borrowed. You thieving bastards You have turned my blood cold and bitter Beat my compassion black and blue Hope this is what you wanted Hope this is what you had in mind 'Cause this is what you're getting I hope you're choking. I hope you choke on this I hope you're choking. I hope you choke on this Taken all I can take, like we wanna take, Taken all you can take you can wig and dig Got nothing left to give to you Blood suckin parasitic little tick/ Blood suckin parasitic little blood suckin parasitic little tick Take what you want and then go Hope this is what you wanted Hope this is what you had in mind 'Cause this is what you're getting Suck me dry, Suck, Fuck me dry, Sucking me dry, Suck, Suck me dry Is this what you wanted? Is this what you had in mind? Is this what you wanted? 'Cause this this is what you're getting I hope, I hope, I hope you choke 9. Lateralis Black then white are all I see in my infancy Red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me, lets me see. As below, so above and beyond, I imagine Drawn beyond the lines of reason Push the envelope. Watch it bend Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines Black then white are all I see in my infancy Red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me, lets me see There is so much more and beckons me To look through to these infinite possibilities As below, so above and beyond, I imagine Drawn outside the lines of reason Push the envelope. Watch it bend Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind Withering my intuition leaving opportunities behind Feed my will to feel this moment urging me to cross the line Reaching out to embrace the random Reaching out to embrace whatever may come I embrace my desire to, I embrace my desire to Feel the rhythm, to feel connected Enough to step aside and weep like a widow To feel inspired, to fathom the power To witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to Swing on the spiral to, swing on the spiral to, Swing on the spiral of, our divinity and still be a human With my feet upon the ground I move myself Between the sounds and open wide to suck it in I feel it move across my skin, I'm reaching up and reaching out I'm reaching for the random or, whatever will bewilder me, whatever will bewilder me And following our will and whim we may just go where no one's been We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been Spiral out, keep going, spiral out, keep going, Spiral out, keep going, spiral out, keep going, 10. Disposition Mention this to me, mention this to me Watch the weather change, watch the weather change Watch the weather change, watch the weather change Mention this to me, mention something, mention anything Mention this to me, watch the weather change Watch the weather change, watch the weather change Watch the weather change, watch the weather change Watch the weather change, Mention this to me, mention something, mention anything Mention this to me, watch the weather Watch the weather change Watch the weather change, watch the weather 11. Reflection I have come curiously close to the end, down Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole Defeated I, concede and move closer, I may find comfort here I may find peace within the emptiness, how pitiful It's calling me, it's calling me, it's calling me, it's calling me And in my darkest moment fetal and weeping The moon tells me your secret, her confidante As full and bright as I am, this night is not my own and Familiar light reflections, pass over me Its source is the light and endless she, resuscitates the hopeless Without her we are lifeless satellites, drifting And as I pull my head out, I am without one doubt Don't wanna peer down here soothing my narcissism, I Must crucify the ego, before it's far too late I pray the light lifts me out Before I pine away, before I pine away, before I pine away, before I pine away So crucify the ego, before it's far too late To leave behind this place so, negative and blind and cynical And you will come to find that we are all one mind Capable of all that's imagined and all conceivable And let the light touch you, so let the words spill through So let them pass right through, bringing out our hope and reason Before we pine away, pine away, before we pine away, pine away Before we pine away, pine away, before we pine away 12. Triad [No Words] 13. Faaip de Oiad [Caller from the Art Bell Show at ~ 1:45 A.M. Friday Sep 12 1997] I don't have a whole lot of time. Um, I'm a former employee of Area 51. I, I was let go on a medical discharge about a week ago and, and, I've kind of been running across the country. Damn, I don't know where to start, they're, they're gonna, um they'll triangulate on this position really really soon. OK, um, um, OK, what we're thinking of as as aliens, uh the they're they're extradimensional beings, that, an earlier precursor of the um space program made contact with. They are not what they claim to be. Uh, they've infiltrated a lot of aspects of, of, of the military establishment, particularly the Area 51. The disasters that are coming, they, the military, I'm sorry, the government knows about them. And there's a lot of safe areas in this world that they could begin moving the population to now. They are not. They want those major population centers wiped out so that the few that are left will be more easily controllable. SALIVAL 1. Third Eye Timothy Leary sample: Think for yourself Question authority Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening, terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities, the political, the religious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us by giving us order, rules, regulations, informing, forming in our minds their view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable, open-mindedness; chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself. Think for yourself. Question authority. [then it's the same as the studio lyrics] 2. Part of Me [same as studio lyrics] 3. Pushit We've been trying something a little different this tour. We've been looking at one of our songs from a different angle, under a different light, so we can hopefully kind of see it almost for the first time. We'd like try that for you tonight, is that okay? We're gonna need your help though. We're gonna need your help and your permission, so we need you to find a comfortable space, that is not only comfortable, but vulnerable. I want you to shut your eyes and go there, and we'll meet you on the other side. Saw that gap again today, while you were begging me to stay Take care not to make me enter, If I do we both may disappeari Saw that gap again today, while you were begging me to stay Managed to push myself away, and you as well, my dear And you, as well, pushed you away my dear I will choke until I swallow, choke this infant here before me What are you but my reflection? Who am I to judge or strike you down? But you're pushing me, and I'm shoving you And your pushing me, and Im shoving you Rest your trigger on my finger, bang my head upon the fault line You better take care not to make me enter, if I do we both may disappear But you're pushing me, and I'm shoving you And your pushing me, and I'm shoving you You still love me We're pushing and were shoving, and you're pushing and I'm shoving You still love me And were pushing and were shoving, and I'm pushing as your shoving And I'm slipping back into the gap again I feel alive when you touch me, I feel alive when you hold me, down Slipping back into you I am somewhere I dont wanna be, yeah, put me somewhere I dont wanna be Push me somewhere I dont wanna be, seeing someplace I don't wanna see Never wanna see that place again Saw that gap again today, while you were begging me to stay Managed to push myself away, and you as well, my dear If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay, You minimize my movement anyway, I must persuade you another way Pushing and shoving and pushing and shoving and pushing me There's no love in fear Staring down the hole again, hands are on my back again Survival is my only friend, terrified of what may come Remember I will always love you, as I claw your fucking throat away It will end no other way 4. Message to Harry Manback II Stronzo (1), stronzo di merda (2), I'm trying to take a nap but I couldn't sleep overnight because of you, ugh, you really hurted me, ohhhh you really hurt me, when I was high, you called me an asshole? Talk to me fai schifo (3), Pezzo di merda (4), have you ever been trying to take a nap? My heart beats too fast, because I'm thinking of your fucking ugly face, You you suck, fai schifo (3), pezzo di merda (4), fai proprio schifo (5), Vafanculo (6), ah, stronzo bastardo (7) (1) Piece of shit / asshole (2) Shit of shit / asshole of shit (3) You are disgusting (4) Piece of shit (5) You just disgusted me / made me sick (6) Go take it in the ass (7) Bastard piece of shit / Bastard asshole 5. You Lied Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone Inside sleeping, my heart beating You know that you tried to hide it Couldn't you have said what you meant, oh Time heals, time congeals around us Endless hours of wasted moments Understanding, not demanding Your eyes tell what you feel inside Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone Inside sleeping, my heart beating You know that you tried to hide it Shouldn't you have said what you meant You lied 6. Merkaba [No words] Samples: [it's / having / in] some kind of psychedelic experience Our body is light, we are immortal, our body is love, we are eternal Eternal.. Omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent, without judgment 7. No Quarter [Tool Version] Lock the door, kill the light, no one's coming home tonight The sun beats down and don't you know, all our lives are growing cold, oh They bring news that must get through, to build a dream for me and you, oh Locked in a place where no one goes They ask no quarter, they have no quarter Lock the door, kill the light, no one's coming home tonight It's getting colder [7x] Locked in a place where no one goes Lock the door, kill the light, no one's coming home tonight They bring news that must get through, dying peace in me and you Locked in a place where no one goes We have no quarter, we have no quarter, we ask no quarter [Led Zeppelin version] Close the door, put out the light, no they won't be home tonight The snow falls hard and don't you know, the winds of Thor are blowing cold They're wearing steel that's bright and true, they carry news that must get through, oooh They choose the path where no-one goes They hold no quarter, they hold no quarter Walking side by side with death, the devil mocks their every step The snow drives back the foot that's slow, the dogs of doom are howling more They carry news that must get through, to build a dream for me and you They choose the path where no-one goes They hold no quarter, they ask no quarter They hold no quarter, they ask no quarter The pain, the pain without quarter, they ask no quarter Yeah, without quarter, quarter, yeah, they need no quarter The dogs of doom are howling more, I hear the dogs of doom are howling more 8. 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(part 2) Maynard's Dick It's all an open center, opens up and lets the wind lift him away He doesn't have to feel the water, it's just a place that feels right now Kinda like the way you're breathing, kinda like the way you keep looking away Would you like to glide on, slide a mile six inches at a time on Maynard's dick Maynard's dick, Maynard's dick, Maynard's dick There's a shyness found in reason, apprehensive influence swallow away You seem to be abysmal take it, then you're [careful grace for sure] Kinda like the way you're breathing, kinda like the way you keep looking away Would you like to climb on, climb on my six inches and go down on Maynard's dick Maynard's dick, Maynard's dick, Maynard's dick Took you out in the back of the toolshed, put it right on top of your forehead Take you out in the back of the toolshed, now you know what you're fuckin' with Maynard's dick, Maynard's dick, Maynard's dick, Maynard's dick [belching & farting noises] ÆNIMA 1. Stinkfist Something has to change, undeniable dilemma Boredom's not a burden, anyone should bear Constant over-stimulation numbs me But I would not want you any other way 'Cause, not enough, I need more, nothing seems to satisfy I said I don't want it, I just need it To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive Finger deep within the borderline Show me that you love me and that we belong together Relax, turn around and take my hand I can help you change, tired moments into pleasure Say the word and we'll be well upon our way Blend and balance, pain and comfort, deep within you 'Till you will not want me any other way But, not enough, I need more, nothing seems to satisfy I said, I don't want it, I just need it, to breathe To feel, to know I'm alive Knuckle deep inside the borderline, this may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to Relax, slip away (Sugar, dear, digger? miss ya'?, [repeat]) (Relax dear, relax dear) Something kinda sad about, the way that things have come to be Desensitized to everything, what became of subtlety How can this mean anything to me, if I really don't feel anything at all I'll keep digging, till I feel something Elbow deep inside the borderline Show me that you love me and that we belong together Shoulder deep within the borderline Relax, turn around and take my hand 2. Eulogy He had a lot to say, he had a lot of nothing to say We'll miss him, we'll miss him He had a lot to say, he had a lot of nothing to say We'll miss him, we'll miss him We're gonna miss him, we're gonna miss him Yeah, so long, we'll wish you well, told us how you weren't afraid to die Well so long, don't cry, or feel too down, not all martyrs see divinity But at least you tried Standing above the crowd, he had a voice that was strong and loud We'll miss him, we'll miss him Ranting and pointing his finger, at everything but his flaw And we'll miss him, we'll miss him We're gonna miss him, we're gonna miss him Yeah no way, to recall, what it was that you had said to me Like I care at all, but it was so loud, you sure could yell Took a stand on every little thing, and so loud (Could you be the one to save me from my own existence) (What in the hell that shocks you, that frightens you, look around you) (I'll put you out with your instrument before I simper on you Dirty past is the scarf around your hands Go the lam way home, no one here's noticed) Yeah standing above the crowd, he had a voice that was strong and loud And I swallowed his facade 'cause I'm so eager to identify with Someone above the ground, someone who seemed to feel the same Someone prepared to lead the way, and someone who would die for me and Will you, will you now, would you die for me, don't you fucking lie Don't you step out of line, don't you step out of line Don't you step out of line, don't you fucking lie You claimed all this time that you would die for me Why then are you so surprised when you hear your own eulogy: He had a lot to say, he had a lot of nothing to say He had a lot to say, he had a lot of nothing to say Come down, get off your fucking cross, we need the fucking space To nail the next fool martyr To ascend you must die, you must be crucified For our sins and our lies, goodbye 3. H. What's coming through is alive, what's holding up is a mirror What's singing songs is a snake (gimmes), looking to turn my piss to wine They're both totally void of hate and, killing me just the same and Snake behind me hisses, what my damage could have been My blood before me begs me open up my heart again And I feel this coming over like a storm again, now, considering maybe Venomous voice, tempts me, 'n' drains me, bleeds me Leaves me cracked and empty, drags me down like some sweet gravity Snake behind me hisses, what my damage could have been My blood before me begs me open up my heart again And I feel this coming over like a storm again, now Lie, feel this coming over like a storm again, now I am too connected to you to, slip away, fade away Days away I still feel you, touching me, changing me Considerately killing me, considerately killing me Considerately killing me, considerately killing me Without the skin here, beneath the storm Under these tears now, the walls came down Once the snake is drowned, and as I look in his eyes My fear begins to fade, recalling all of the times I could have cried then, I should have cried then As the walls come down and, as I look in your eyes My fear begins to fade, recalling all of the times I have died, and will die, it's all right, I don't mind I am too connected to you, slip away, fade away And days away I still feel you, touching me, changing me Considerately killing me [3x] 4. Useful Idiot 5. Forty-Six & 2 (Joining my, join in my child and listen Diggin' through, my old numb shadow) My shadow's shedding skin, I've been picking scabs again I'm down digging through, my own muscles looking for a clue I've been crawling on my belly, clearing out what could have been I've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions For the piece to cross me over, or a word to guide me in I wanna feel the changes coming down, I wanna know what I've been hiding In my shadow, my shadow, changes coming through my shadow My shadow shedding skin, I've been picking my scabs again (Joining my, joining my shadow, my own shadow moves closer to me and) I've been crawling on my belly, clearing out what could have been I've been wallowing in my own chaotic insecure delusion I wanna feel the change consume me, feel the outside turning in I wanna feel the metamorphosis and cleansing I've endured in My shadow, my shadow, change is coming, now is my time Listen to my muscle memory, contemplate what I've been clinging to Forty-six and two ahead of me I choose to live and to, grow, take and give and to, move Learn and love and to, cry, kill and die and to Be paranoid and to, lie, hate and fear and to Do what it takes to move through I choose to live and to, lie, kill and give and to, die learn and love and to, do what it takes to step through See my shadow changing, stretching up and over me, soften this old armor Hoping I can clear the way, by stepping through my shadow Coming out the other side, step into the shadow Forty six and two are just ahead of me 6. Message to Harry Manback Figlio di puttana, sai che tu sei un pezzo di merda? (1) Hm? You think you're cool, right? Hm? Hm? When you kicked out people [out of] your house. I tell you this, one of three Americans die of cancer, you know? Asshole. You're gonna be one of those. I didn't have the courage to kick your ass directly. Don't have enough courage for that, I could, you know. You know you're gonna have another accident? You know I'm involved with black magic? Fuck you. Die. Bastard. You think you're so cool, hm? Asshole. And if I ever see your fucking face around, In Europe or Italy, Well I'll -- That time I'm gonna kick your ass. Fuck you. Fucking Americans, Yankee. You're gonna die outta cancer, I promise. Breathe pain. No one does what you did to me. You wanna know something? Fuck you. I want your balls smashed, eat shit. Bastard. Pezzo di merda, figlio di puttana.(2) I hope somebody in your family dies soon. Crepa, pezzo di merda, e vai a sucare cazzi su un aereo! (3) (1) Son of a bitch, do you know you are a piece of shit (2) Piece of shit, son of a bitch (3) Die, piece of shit, and go suck dicks on a plane 7. Hooker with a Penis I met a boy wearing Van, 501, and a dope Beastie T, nipple rings New tattoos and claiming he was OGT, back from '92, from the first EP And in between Sips of Coke, he told me that he thought We were sellin' out, layin' down, sucking up to the man Well now I've got some advice for you little buddy Before you point your finger you should know that I'm the man If I'm the man then you're the man, and he's the man as well So you can point that fucking finger up your ass (dipshits, fuckface) All you know about me is what I sold you, dumb fuck I sold out long before you'd ever even heard my name I sold my soul to make a record, dip shit, and then you bought one I've got some advice for you, little buddy Before you point your finger you should know that I'm the man If I'm the fucking man then you're the fucking man as well So you can point that fucking finger up your ass (dipshit? fuckface?) All you know about me is what I sold you, dumbfuck I sold out long before you'd ever heard my name I sold my soul to make a record, dipshit, then you bought one All you read and wear or see and hear on TV Is a product begging for your fatass dirty dollar Shut up and, buy, buy, buy, my new record, buy, buy, buy, send more money Fuck you, buddy [4x] 8. Intermission 9. Jimmy What was it like to see, the face of your own stability Suddenly look away, leaving you with the dead and hopeless Eleven and she was gone, eleven is when we waved good-bye Eleven is standing still, (waiting for me) Waiting for me to free him by, coming home Moving me with a sound, opening me within a gesture, drawing me down and in (Showing me where it all began) showing me where it all began, eleven He was too scarred to be alive (he was) You are the voice that's been calling me back home Under a dead Ohio sky, eleven has been and will be waiting Defending his light and wondering Where the hell have I been, sleeping, lost, and numb I'm So glad that I have found you, I am wide awake and heading home (Can't you see, hold your light, choose the light Kill the light, can't you see, kill the light and answer me) (Your light a heavenly, dreamy day of memory Hold your light, hold your light, hold your light where I can see) Yeoow, Aahaahaaaaah Hold your light, eleven lead me through each gentle step By step, by inch by loaded memory I'll move to heal, as soon as pain allows so we can Reunite and both move on together Hold your light, eleven lead me through each gentle step By step, by inch by loaded memory 'Till one and one are one, eleven, so glow, child, glow I'm heading back home 10. Die Eier Von Satan Die Eier Von Satan Eine halbe Tasse Staubzucker Ein Viertel Teelöffel Salz Eine Messerspitze türkisches Haschisch Ein halbes Pfund Butter Ein Teelöffel Vanillenzucker Ein halbes Pfund Mehl Einhundertfünfzig Gramm gemahlene Nüsse Ein wenig extra Staubzucker Und keine Eier In eine Schüssel geben Butter einrühren Gemahlene Nusse zugeben und Den Teig verkneten Augenballgroße Stücke vom Teig formen Im Staubzucker wälzen und Sagt die Zauberwörter Simsalbimbamba Saladu Saladim Auf ein gefettetes Backblech legen und Bei zweihundert Grad für fünfzehn Minuten backen Und Keine Eier Bei zweihundert Grad für fünfzehn Minuten backen Und Keine Eier -English The Eggs of Satan Half a cup of powdered sugar One quarter teaspoon salt One knifetip Turkish hash Half a pound butter One teaspoon vanilla-sugar Half a pound flour 150 grams ground nuts A little extra powdered sugar And no eggs Place in a bowl, add butter, add the ground nuts and knead the dough Form eyeball-size pieces from the dough, roll in the powdered sugar and say the Magic Words: "Simsalbimbamba Saladu Saladim" Place on a greased baking pan and bake at 200 degrees for 15 minutes And no eggs Bake at 200 degrees for 15 minutes And no eggs 11. Pushit (Saw that gap again today dear, while you were begging me to stay Take care not to make me enter, If I do we both may disappear) You bet I will choke until I swallow, choke this infant here before me What is this but my reflection, who am I to judge or strike you down (pushing, shoving) [4x] Yeah you're pushing and shoving me, pushing and shoving me Pushing and shoving me, pushing and shoving me You steal off of me, still love me, shooting me, shit on me Steal off of me, still love me, shooting me, shit on me Rest your trigger on my finger, bang my head upon the faultline You better take care not to make me enter 'Cause if I do we both may disappear Pushing and shoving me, pushing and shoving me Pushing and shoving me, pushing and shoving me You steal off of me, still love me, shooting me, shit on me You're pushing and shoving me, pushing and shoving me Yea I'm slipping back into the gap again, I'm alive when you're touching me Alive when you're shoving me down, yeah But I'd trade it all, for just a little, peace of mind Pour shit on me, pushit on me, pushit on me, pour shit on me You're pushing and shoving me, scrambling, kick my feet back on the ground (I am somewhere I don't wanna be, with you) Push me somewhere I don't wanna be, put me somewhere I don't wanna be Seeing someplace I don't wanna see, I never wanna see that place again Saw that gap again today, while you were begging me to stay Managed to push myself away, and you, as well my dear If when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay You minimize my movement anyway I must persuade you another way Pushing and shoving and pushing and shoving and pushing me there's no love in fear Yeah, staring down the hole again, hands around my back again Survival is my only friend, terrified of what may come Yeah remember I'll always love you, as I claw your fucking throat away It will end no other way, it will end no other way 12. Cesaro Summability [after the baby's cry, there are quiet distorted voices under the guitar] 13. Ænema [I've heard that the image under the CD is an old scientific study's prediction of what the California coastline will look like around 2005] Hey . . . Some say the end is near, some say we'll see Armageddon soon Certainly hope we will, I sure could use a vacation from this Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of Freaks here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA The only way to fix it is to flush it all away Any fucking time any fucking day, learn to swim See you down in Arizona bay Fret for your figure and fret for your latte and Fret for your lawsuit and fret for your hairpiece and Fret for your prozac and fret for your pilot and Fret for your contract and fret for your car it's a Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of Freaks here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA The only way to fix it is to flush it all away Any fucking time, any fucking day, learn to swim See you down in Arizona bay Hey . . . [hey . . . hate . . . I hate it] Some say a comet will fall from the sky Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits And some say the end is near, some say we'll see Armageddon soon I certainly hope we will, I sure could use a vacation from this Stupid shit, silly shit, stupid shit One great big festering neon distraction I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied Learn to swim 'Cause mom's gonna fix it all soon Mom's coming round to put it back the way it ought to be Learn to swim . . . Fuck L. Ron Hubbard and fuck all his clones Fuck all those gun-toting hip gangster wannabes Learn to swim . . . Fuck retro anything, fuck your tattoos Fuck all you junkies and fuck your short memory Learn to swim . . . Fuck smiley glad-hands with hidden agendas Fuck these disfunctional insecure actresses Learn to swim . . . I'm praying for rain, I'm praying for tidal waves I want to see the ground give way, I want to watch it all go down Ma please flush it all away, I wanna see it go right in and down I wanna watch it go right in, watch you flush it all away Yeah, time to bring it down again, Yeah don't just call me pessimist, try and read between the lines And I can't imagine why you wouldn't welcome any change, my friend I want to see it come down, bring it down, suck it down, flush it down Hey . . . 14. (-) Ions [sounds of a microphone in wind, one of those cheesy science fiction movies' V shaped spark generators using three dimensional sound imaging, a rattling sheet of metal, a jew's harp and a synthesizer] 15. Third eye "See I think drugs have done some good things for us. I really do. And if you don't believe drugs have done good things for us, do me a favor: Go home tonight, take all your albums, all your tapes and all your CDs and burn 'em. 'Cause you know what, the musicians who made all that great music that's enhanced your lives throughout the years. Rrrrrrrreal fucking high on drugs." [-Bill Hicks, "Drugs Have Done Good Things" from Relentless] "Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we're the imagination of ourselves. Here's Tom with the weather." "It's not a war on drugs, it's a war on personal freedom is what it is, OK? Keep that in mind at all times, thank you." [-Bill Hicks, "The War On Drugs" from Dangerous] Dreaming of that face again, it's bright and blue and shimmering Grinning wide, and comforting me with it's three warm and wild eyes On my back and tumbling, down that hole and back again (back again) Rising up and wiping the webs and the dew from my withered eye Hey, die, hey, hi In, out, in, out, in, out . . . A child's rhyme stuck in my head, it said that life is but a dream I've spent so many years in question, to find I've known this all along So good to see you, I've missed you so much So glad it's over, I've missed you so much Came out to watch you play, why are you running away Came out to watch you play, why are you running Shrouding all the ground around me, is this holy crow above me Black as holes within a memory, blue as our new second sun I stick my hand into the shadow, to pull the pieces from the sand Which I attempt to reassemble, suggest who I might have been I do not recognize the vessel, but the eyes seem so familiar Like phosphorescent desert buttons, singing one familiar song So good to see you, I've missed you so much So glad it's over, I missed you so much Came out to watch you play, why are you running away Came out to watch you play, why are you running away Prying open my third eye [4x] [whispering/acid trip type sounds] So good to see you once again, I thought that you were hiding You thought that I had run away, chasing the tail of dogma I opened my eye, I opened my eye, I opened my eye and there we were I opened my eye, I opened my eye, I opened my eye and there we were So good to see you once again, I thought that you were hiding from me You thought that I had run away, chasing a trail of smoke and reason [more whispering/trippy sounds] Prying open my third eye [10x] UNDERTOW 1. Intolerance I don't wanna be hostile, I don't wanna be dismal And I don't wanna rot in an apathetic existence See I wanna believe you, and I wanted to trust you I don't wanna have faith to put away the dagger But you lie cheat and steal, you lie cheat and steal You lie cheat and steal and I tolerate You lie cheat and steal, you lie cheat and steal You lie cheat and steal, I cannot tolerate Veil of virtue, hung to hide your method while I'm Smiling, laughing, dancing, sing your praise and glory Shroud of virtue, hung to mask your stigma as I'm Smiling, laughing, dancing, sing your glory While you lie cheat and steal, you lie cheat and steal You lie cheat and steal, I cannot tolerate you You lie cheat and steal, you lie cheat and steal You lie cheat and steal, I cannot tolerate Our guilt, out blame, I've been far too sympathetic Our blood, our fault, I've been far too sympathetic I'm not innocent, I am not innocent You are not innocent, No one is innocent You lie cheat and steal [16x] I can't tolerate I will not tolerate you, I will go down inside you I must go down inside you, No one is innocent 2. Prison Sex It took so long to remember just what happened I was so young and vestal then, you know it hurt me But I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive Even the signs seemed to tell me otherwise Got my hands bound, and my head down And my eyes closed, my throat's wide open I do unto others what has been done to me Do unto others what has been done to you I'm treading water I need to sleep a while My lamb and martyr, you look so precious Won't you, won't you come a bit closer Close enough so I can smell you I need you to feel this, I can't stand to burn too long Release in sodomy for one sweet moment I'm whole I do unto you now what has been to me I do unto you now, what has been done You're breathing so I guess you're still alive Even the signs seem to tell me otherwise Won't you, won't you come a bit closer Close enough so I can smell you I need you to feel this, I need this to make me whole Release in sodomy and your witness that blood and flesh can be trusted I am your witness that blood and flesh can be trusted Only this one holy medium brings me piece of mind Got your hands bound, and your head down And your eyes closed, you look so precious now I have found some kind of temporary sanity in this Shit, blood, and come on my hands, I've come round full circle My lamb and martyr, this will be over soon You look so precious [4x] You look so precious now, you look so precious 3. Sober There's a shadow just behind me, shrouding every step I take Making every promise empty, pointing every finger at me Waiting like a stalking butler, who upon the finger rests Murder now the pattern must weave, just because the son has come Jesus, won't you fucking whistle, something from the past and done Why can't we not be sober, I just want to start this over Why can't we drink forever, I just want to start this over I am just a worthless liar, I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you, trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you, I will chew it up and leave I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you down Mother Mary, won't you whisper, something from the past and done Why can't we not be sober, I just want to start this over Why can't we sleep forever, I just want to start this over I am just a worthless liar, I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you, trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you, I will chew it up and leave Trust me [5x] Why can't we not be sober, I just want to start things over Why can't we sleep forever I just want to start this over I want what I want [4x] 4. Bottom Compassion is broken now, wounds they're openin' now Desire is broken now, makes me feel ugly On my knees, I'm burning, my piss and moans are fueling That set my head on fire, smell my soul, it's burning Broken, lookin' up at the enemy And I have swallowed the poison you feed me But I survived on the poison you feed me Guilt fed, hatred fed, weakness fed, it makes me feel ugly On my knees, I'm burning, my piss and moans are fueling I set my head on fire, I'm dead inside Shit adds up [3x] Shit adds up at the bottom [Guest vocals: Henry Rollins] If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. In order to survive you, I must first survive myself. I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you. There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you. I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain I will use my mistakes against you. There is no other choice. Shameless now, nameless now, nothing now, no one now. But my soul must be iron 'cause my fear is naked. I'm naked and fearless, and my fear is naked Dead inside [4x] Nameless now, shameless now, nothing now, no one now (Shit adds up [3x]) Shit - As you see me naked now, fearless now, naked now, fearless now Shit adds up, shit adds up, shit adds, shit adds, shit adds up It leaves me Dead inside [4x] Hatred keeps me alive, hunger has kept me alive Weakness keeps me alive, guilt keeps me alive at the bottom 5. Crawl Away Crawled away from me, slipped away from me Tried to keep a hold, but there was nothing I could say Slid away from me, crept away from me Tried to keep it down, but there was nothing I could say What you try to say is you don't wanna play What you want and what you need don't mean that much to me I can see your back is turning, if I could I'd stick a knife in Crawled away from me, slipped away from me Tried to keep a hold, but there was nothing I could say Slid away from me, crept away from me Tried to keep it down, but there was nothing I could say What you try to say is you don't wanna play What you want and what you need don't mean that much to me I can see your back is turning, if I could I'd stick a knife in This is love [2x] This is my love for you [5x] This is my love Say you won't go, won't go, won't go, say it Get you in a strangle hold baby, get it 'till you get it right What you try to say is you don't wanna play What you want and what you need don't mean a fuck to me I can see your back is turning, if I could I'd stick a knife in 6. Swamp Song My warning meant nothing, you're dancing in quicksand Why don't you watch where you're wandering Why don't you watch where you're stumbling You're wading knee deep and going in, you're wading knee deep and going in This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a dumb and belligerent fucker I hope it sucks you down down down down My warning meant nothing, you're dancing in quicksand Why don't you watch where you're wandering Why don't you watch where you're stumbling You're wading knee deep and going in, and you may never come back again This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a dumb ass belligerent fucker I hope it sucks you down My warning meant nothing, you're dancing in quicksand Why don't you watch where you're wandering Why don't you watch where you're stumbling You're wading knee deep and going in, and you may never come back again This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a dumb ass belligerent fucker I hope it suck I hope it suck I hope it sucks you, fucker I hope it suck I hope it suck I hope it sucks you down Wandering, wandering, no one even invited you in You're still stumbling, suffocate, suffocate, why don't you get away Wandering around, who let you in, no one even invited you in You're still stumbling, suffocate, suffocate Why don't you get out while you can No one told you to come! My warning meant nothing, you're dancing in quicksand Why don't you watch where you're wandering Why don't you watch where you're stumbling You're wading knee deep and going in, and you may never come back again This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker This bog is thick and easy to get lost in 'Cause you're a dumb ass belligerent fucker I hope it suck I hope it suck I hope it sucks you, fucker I hope it suck I hope it sucks I hope it sucks you 7. Undertow Two times in (shot down) I've been struck dumb by a voice that Speaks from deep beneath endless water It's twice as clear as heaven, twice as loud as reason Deep and rich like silt on a river bed Just as never ending Currents mount below me, opens up around me Suggests and beckons all while swallowing Surrounds and drowns and wipes me away But I'm so comfortable, so comfortable Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up your saturating me How could I let this bring me back to my knees Third time in I've been baptized by a voice that Screams from deep beneath, the cold black water It's half as high as heaven, half as clear as reason Cool and black like silt on a river bed Just as never ending Currents mount below me, opens up around me Gestures, beckons all while swallowing Surrounds and drowns and wipes me away But I'm so comfortable, so comfortable Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, your saturating me How could I let it happen, why don't you kill me I am weak and numb and insignificant How could I let that bring me back to my knees Euphoria [4x] I'm back down, I'm in the undertow I'm helpless and I'm awake, I'm in the undertow I'll die beneath the undertow There doesn't seem no other way out of the undertow Euphoria 8. 4° Get up, get up now [4x] Free yourself from yourself [2x] Locked up inside you like the calm beneath castles Is a cavern of treasures that none has been to Let's go digging, let's go digging, bring it out and take it back in You won't do what you'd like to do Lay back and let me show you another way I'll kill what you to, take what's left and eat it Take all or nothing, life's just too short to push it away Take it all, take it all in All the way in, all the way in, Let it go in, let it go in You won't feel what you'd like to feel Lay back and let me show you another way Kill what you want to, take what's left, and eat it Take all or nothing, just too short to lock it up Knock me down, I'll just come back running Knock you down, and it won't be long now All the way in, all the way in, all the way in, all the way in Kill what you want to, take what's left, and eat it Take all or nothing, just too short to push it away Take it up, take it up higher now Four degrees now, four degrees warmer Give in now, give in, now, let me in You'll like this, this brings us higher You'll like this, it brings us closer than dying and cancer and crying Let's, take it in, take it, won't you take it in, take it, take it, come on Won't you take it, take it all, why don't you take it all, take it Why don't you take it, take it, why don't you take it, take it Won't you please take it, take it, take it in, take it in, take it in Hnn, Hnnn, Hnnnnn, Why cry Kill what you want to, take what's left, and eat it Take all or nothing, life's just too short for me too Just like that [3x] 9. Flood The water [4x] Here comes the water [7x] All I knew, all I believed Crumbling images no longer comfort me Scramble to reach higher ground Order and sanity, or something to comfort me Take what is mine, hold what's mine Suffocate what is mine, bury what's mine Soon the water will come, and claim what is mine I must leave it behind and climb to a new place now This ground is not the rock I thought it to be. Thought I was high, thought I was free Thought I was there, to define destiny I was wrong, this changes everything Running away, running away, got me running away Running away, now I'm running away, running away Now I'm running away, running away I will take what is mine, hold what's mine Suffocate what is mine, bury what's mine Soon the water will come, and claim what is mine I must leave it behind and climb to a new place Water's rising up on me, said the water's rising up on me Thought the sun would come deliver me But the truth has come to punish me instead Die Ground's breakin' down right under me Cleanse and purge me in the water 10.-67. one second of silence each 68. two seconds of silence 69. Disgustipated And the angel of the lord came unto me, snatching me up from my place of slumber, and took me on high, and higher still until we moved through the spaces betwixt the air itself. And he brought me into a vast farmland of our own midwest. And as we descended, cries of impending doom arose from the soil. One thousand, nay, a million voices full of fear. And terror possessed me then. And I begged: "Angel of the lord, what are these tortured screams?" And the angel said unto me: "These are the cries of the carrots. The cries of the carrot. You see, reverend Maynard, tomorrow is harvest day, and to them, it is the holocaust." And I sprang from my slumber drenched in sweat with the tears of one million terrified brothers and roared: "Hear me now, I have seen the light. They have a consciousness! They have a life! They have a soul. Damn you! Let the rabbits wear glasses. Save our brothers." Can I get an amen. Can I get a halleluiah. Thank you, Jesus. This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on This is necessary, this is necessary Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life It was daylight when you woke up in your ditch. You looked up at your sky. That, that made blue be your color. You had your knife there with you, too. When you stood up, there was goo all over your clothes. Your hands were sticky. You wiped them on your grass, so now your color was green. Oh, lord, why did everything always have to keep changing like this. You were already getting nervous again. Your head hurt, and it rang when you stood up. Your head was amost empty. It always hurt you when you woke up like this. You crawled up out of your ditch, onto your gravel road, and you began to walk, waiting for the rest of your mind to come back to you. You could see the car parked far down the road, and you walked toward it. If god is our father, you thought, then Satan must be our cousin. Why didn't anyone else understand these important things. When you got to your car, you tried all the doors. They were locked. It was a red car, and it was new. There was an expensive leather camera case laying on the seat. Out across your field you could see two tiny people walking by your woods. You began to walk towards them. Now red was your color. And of course, those little people out there were yours, too. OPIATE 1. Sweat I'm sweating and breathing and staring and thinking Sinking deeper and it's almost like I'm swimming And the sun is burning hot again, on the hunter and the fisherman And I'm trying to remember when, but it makes me dizzy Seems like I've been here before, seems so familiar Seems like I'm slipping, into a dream within a dream It's the way you whisper The sun is setting cool again, I'm a thinker and a fisherman And I'm trying to remember when but it makes me dizzy And I'm sweating and breathing, staring, thinking Sinking deeper and it's almost like I'm swimming Seems like I've been here before, seems so familiar Seems like I'm slipping, into a dream within a dream It's the way you whisper Drag me under Takes me home Seems like I've been here before, seems so familiar Seems like I'm slipping, into a dream within a dream It's the way you whisper Drags me under Takes me home 2. Hush Fuck you I can't say what I want to, even if I'm not serious I can't say what I want to, even if I'm not serious Things like "Fuck yourself, go fuck yourself You piece of shit why don't you just go kill yourself" I say I can't say what I want to, even if I'm not serious I can't say what I want to, even if I'm just kidding Yeah People tell me what to say, what to think, and what to play I said people tell me what to say, fuck to think, and what to play I say "Fuck yourself, fuck yourself You piece of shit why don't you just go kill yourself" I say I can't say what I want to, even if I'm not serious I can't say what I want to, even if I'm just kidding I say "fuck yourself, go fuck yourself You piece of shit why don't you go fuck yourself?" People tell me what to say, what to think, and what to play I said people tell me what to say, what to think, and what to play Just kidding, just kidding, I'm just kidding 3. Part Of Me I know you well, you are a part of me I know you better than I know myself I know you best, better than anyone I know you better than I know myself You are a part of me You are just a part of me [4x] Give it up You don't speak, you don't judge, you can't leave, you can't hurt me You're just here for me to use I know you well, you are a part of me I know you better than I know myself I know you best, better than anyone I know you better than I know myself I know you well, better than one might think I know you better than I know myself I know you well, you are a part of me I know you best, better than anyone I know you well, you are a part of me I know you best, better than one might think It's time for you to make a sacrifice It's time to die a little, give it up I know you bell, better than anyone I know you better than I know myself A part of me 4. Cold and Ugly "Pretty deaf Dylan is working. Throw that Bob Marley wannabe motherfucker out of here. Yeeeeeaaah, whoo hoo, ha ha ha, excellent" Sane Underneath her skin and jewelry, hidden in her words and eyes Is a wall that's cold and ugly, and she's scared as hell Trembling at the thought of feeling, wide awake and keeping distance Nothing seems to penetrate her, 'cause she's scared as hell I am frightened too, I am frightened Trembling at the thought of feeling, wide awake and keeping distance Nothing seems to penetrate her, 'cause she's scared as hell I am frightened too, I am frightened Wide awake and keeping distance from my soul Wide awake and keeping distance from my soul Underneath her skin and jewelry, hidden in her words and eyes Is a wall that's cold and ugly, and she's scared as hell Trembling at the thought of feeling, wide awake and keeping distance Nothing seems to penetrate her, 'cause she's scared as hell I am frightened too, I am frightened, I am scared like you, I am frightened 5. Jerk-Off "Used to be a bunch of assholes that lived in this part of the building here. But we systematically removed them like you would any kind of termite or roach." Someone told me once that there's a right and wrong Punishment was sure for those who dare to cross the line But it must not be true for jerk-offs just like you and Maybe it takes longer to catch a total asshole But I'm tired of waiting Someone told me once that there's a right and wrong Punishment was sure for those who dare to cross the line But it must not be true for jerk-offs just like you and Maybe it's just bullshit and I should play God, and shoot you myself Tired of waiting Consequences dictate our course of action and it Doesn't matter what's right, it's only wrong if you get caught If consequences dictate my course of action, I should I should play God and just shoot you myself Tired of waiting Die Shoot you, kick you, fuck you, shoot you in your fucking head 6. (part 1) Opiate Choices always were a problem for you What you need is someone strong to guide you Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow What you need is someone strong to guide you, like me, like me If you want to get your soul to heaven Trust in me now don't you judge or question You are broken now but faith can heal you Just do everything I tell you to do Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow What you need is someone strong to guide you Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow Let me lay my holy hand a hand upon you My Gods will, becomes me, when he speaks out, he speaks through me He has needs, like I do, we both want to rape you Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life now Open my eyes blind me with your light now Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life now Open my eyes blind me with your light now If you want to get your soul to heaven, Trust in me now don't you judge or question You are broken now but faith can heal you Just do everything I tell you to do Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life now Open my eyes blind me with your light now Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life now Open my eyes blind me with your light now Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow Let me lay my holy hand a hand upon you My Gods will, becomes me, when he speaks out, he speaks through me He has needs, like I do, we both want to rape you 6. (part 2) The Gaping Lotus Experience Satan [3x] I had a friend once he took some acid, now he thinks he's a fire hydrant It's okay until he pisses on your lighter Kinda smells kinda cool kinda funny anyway Satan [5x] I had a friend once he took some ecstasy Tried to marry me and everyone in the room He was sort of loving kinda caring Kinda tried to fuck my lazy boy It got a bit messy all over the curtains Arm chair covers throw pillows and carpeting I'm getting bored [8x]